Friday, July 16, 2010

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

As many of you know, I've been really dedicated to a workout plan that I started last summer. I've definitely made progress, but I kind of thought I might be hot by this point. Well, I think part of my problem is that I need to shake things up a bit with my trainer and my gym. So, I decided to go to a new gym around the corner with better facilities, more hours, and a different trainer with a different approach. This all sounds well and good but I've been dragging my feet on "breaking up" with my current trainer to make the change. Well, today I decided to do it. So, after our session this morning I was doing some extra cardio and asked him to talk and instead of talking in his office he wanted me to keep going so while I was on the bike I laid it all out there and said the very things you would when you break up with a boyfriend:
I just think I need a change.
Something isn't working for me.
I owe it to myself to see what else is out there.
It's not you, it's me.
Now, it's funny that I said the last one because I then proceeded to explain how it was all him and really much less about me. And he did not want our relationship to end. He offered discounts and extra sessions and then tried to throw guilt trips at me and told me he's "seen people go down this road before". I mean, did he ever hear that you have to let people go and if they come back it was meant to be? These were the most extruciating 18 minutes of my life.
No, I just have to do this, you have to let me go.
This is hard for me too, I know that we've been working on this for a year and I appreciate how much you've done for me.
I won't know if this is right for me if I have nothing else to compare it to.
Here's the really fun part. After wanting to die after this conversation, I had to check my remaining balance of sessions. Turns out I have 4 more to go before I have used up all the ones I paid for. So, I compare it to breaking up with someone but you agreed to go to a wedding with them so you still end up going together. The next couple of weeks are going to be awkward city!
I've always been a bit of a hearbreaker so we can just add this one to the list of the many many many broken hearts I've left in my wake.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Is It Just Me?

Why do I always get stuck behind the slowest walkers? Anyone who knows me also knows that I'm not exactly a speed demon myself so if I think someone is slow, they are S-L-O-W!!! Today I was stuck behind a woman as I went to grab lunch who had clearly made a poor choice in footwear and was struggling to stand up let alone walk. But did she let people go by her who were clearly going at a faster clip? NOPE! Did she allow for any space to her left or right in case someone wanted to make a break for it? NOPE! As a slow walker myself, I am sensisitive to the fact that those around me may wish to pass by. That's why they have the standing and the walking lanes on the moving walkways. This doesn't just happen to me when I'm walking behind them, it also happens to me when I'm driving. I stop at a bunch of crosswalks on my way to and from work each day and I let people walk across the street, HOWEVER, would it kill some of them to move it along a little faster? Now, I give a pass to the elderly and the handicapped, but the fully functioning and non-arthritic people out there who are STILL taking forever have got to cut it out. They chat away with their friends, they do a little dance, they even look right at me sometimes as they mosey along without a care in the world. What I would like to say is: "Hey there, it turns out I have somewhere to go which is why I'm in my CAR waiting for you to stop being an obstruction on the road!" Also, lady in the lunchroom "I'm sorry you wanted to wear your 'cute' shoes so badly that now you are suffering the consequences, but that was your choice and not mine and I don't have all day here for you to wobble to and fro!"
But I say none of these things, I just let them go at their own pace and deal with it. If only they knew the rage I was suppressing inside! Luckily for them I also have a short term memory loss problem so I quickly forget what I was so pissed about...